Lucy sat in her hospital bed as a nurse wrote down her observations.

"You're doing very well Mrs Cooper" The nurse stated

"I'm feeling so much better" Lucy replied

The nurse smiled and left as Gary walked in.

"I'm so glad you're doing better, I was so worried" Gary stated

Lucy smiled awkwardly

"What?" Gary asked observing her reaction to his comment

"What are you doing here? I don't understand" Lucy replied

"I was worried, what do you mean?" Gary asked

"At least Valene had the decency to be honest, at least she could do it" Lucy stated

"I told you why she couldn't come here" Gary stated

"Here we go again, will we ever have an honest relationship? She isn't here because she chose not to be, because we don't have any kind of relationship" Lucy replied

"That's not true" Gary replied

"Look , for a long time I wanted something from you, I wanted a father and it just wasn't going to happen, I'm not just blaming you, but it's a fact" Lucy stated honestly

"I have been here everyday Lucy" Gary justified

Lucy smiled "Sure , I know, and that's nice, but that's all it is, you are driven by guilt, not because of our relationship, well I'm sorry, I can't pretend anymore that we have something we don't, I can't be a hypocrite" Lucy stated harshly

There was a silence

"I'm sorry Lucy, I'm sorry you feel that" Gary said hurt, sitting next to her

"I spent so long thinking about what might of been, that part of me never really moved on, can you understand that?" Lucy asked

Gary nodded

"This has been a long time coming" Gary stated "But not totally unexpected" he replied

"You have a family in California and I truly hope that Betsy and Bobby appreciate that, of course if things could have been different but they weren't and my path was different, but grandma has my been my rock and I realized a long time ago that she's all the family I need, I don't need what might of been, I appreciate what I have" Lucy explained

Gary nodded

"You will always be Miss Ellie's son but your not my father, not really, and you don't need to feel guilty anymore " Lucy said tightening her lips

There was a moment of silence, Gary stood up, he knelt over and kissed Lucy on the forehead.

"Look after your grandma" Gary stated

Lucy nodded, Gary stood up and left the room, Lucy watched him leave. She took a deep sigh.

Miss Ellie sat outside the room, Gary walked out tearful

"What's wrong Gary? Is Lucy ok?" Ellie asked

Gary knelt down to be at eye level with his mother

"Oh yeah she's fine" He smiled

He looked into his mothers eyes.

"Momma, I realized I have never really thanked you for all you did for Lucy" Gary stated

Miss Ellie smiled "There is no need to thank me, Lucy is my granddaughter" she stated

"You gave her so much, you gave her something that (he paused), something that I wasn't able too, or Valene, she is so lucky to have you" Gary stated hugging Miss Ellie

Ellie pulled away and took his hand.

"Is this about Lucy, Gary or is this about you?" she asked calmly, smiling

"I guess I have a lot to talk about, a lot to deal with about my own childhood, we never really spoke about what happened" Gary said

Ellie nodded and stroked his hair.

"Maybe it was all just too painful for both of us" Ellie replied

"I want us to talk about it, but for now I have to go back to California, but I want to come back soon, can we do that? Please" Gary asked

Ellie nodded and hugged her son.

Christopher waited at the departure gate as people walked through having their tickets checked by American Airlines. He looked around holding his hand luggage. He looked up and spotted Becky walking through the crowd.

"Becky" he called out pushing through the people to reach her.

"You came" Christopher smiled

Becky nodded "Here I am, I have no idea why, but I came" she replied

"I needed to see you before I left, I haven't seen you since.." he looked down.

"It's ok Christopher, you can say it, since John Ross died" Becky replied

"Well I still can't believe what happened" Christopher replied

"Let me cut to the chase, Christopher, did you do it? Did you kill John Ross?" Becky asked bluntly

There was silence

"What? How can you say that? I loved him too, I just couldn't help how I felt about you, how I still feel about you" Christopher replied

"Well I feel that we both killed him, inadvertently, what happened between us should never of taken place, then this would never of happened. Don't you see that? I will never forgive myself and I will never forgive you, never" Becky stated as a tear marked her cheek

"Do you know since it happened, I run over and over it in my head, I wake up in the night, I can't sleep, that should of been me in the barn and if John Ross hadn't pulled me out, it would of been. He was a brother to me and despite everything I loved him like one but I don't regret us. I regret how it turned out, I loved you since the first day I met you" Christopher replied

"Stop it Christopher, please, don't go on" Becky said

The aanouncer requested all passengers on American Airlines to Rome go to the boarding gate.

"That's my call" Christopher said.

"Well good luck Christopher" Becky stated

"Now you take care of yourself, but now I need to ask you something" Christopher stated

"What's that?" Becky replied

"Did it mean anything to you? us?" Christopher asked

"No, it was just a moment" Becky replied bluntly

"Then why did you come? Why are you really here?" Christopher asked

"Because I had to see you, I had to ask you" Becky replied

"Fine" Christopher whispered and turned to leave

"When will you be back?" Becky asked

Christopher turned "Now that's a good question" he smiled and walked away.

Becky stood alone watching Christopher walk through the departure gate.

Sue Ellen walked down the corridor of Dallas memorial hospital following a visit to Lucy. Pamela walked towards her, the two women stopped.

"Hello Sue Ellen" Pamela stated hugging her friend.

"Pamela, it's good to see you" Sue Ellen stated

"I would of come to see you at Southfork but after everything I didn't......." Pamela replied as Sue Ellen interjected

"It's ok Pam, I really don't blame you, at least Lucy is ok" Sue Ellen stated in a mild tone

"I was on my way to see her, would you like to go for a coffee?" Pamela asked

"I'd like that Pam" Sue Ellen replied sorrowfully.

Pam smiled.

Lucy lay in her bed at the hospital using the remote control to turn over the television stations on the cable and left it a music video "Run for cover - by Sugarbabes"

The door to Lucy's room opened, a tall dark haired man walked in.

"Great song" he said to Lucy and smiled

Lucy switched off the cable box

"Can I help you?" Lucy asked adjusting her hair for the handsome stranger.

"Sorry" he said walking over to her "I'm Dean Hillman, my brother is Philip" he stated

Lucy sat up "Oh I see, sorry I had no idea"

 

"My brothers death was a huge shock to his family, but I'm pleased you're ok, but I wanted to see you" Dean explained.

"Of course, what happened is so so awful, I'm so sorry" Lucy replied

 

 

"Well they say it would of been quick, but I needed to hear what happened, about his last moments" Dean asked

Lucy smiled "Of course, anything, just ask" she replied.

Dean sat down.

Sue Ellen sat opposite Pamela in the hospital cafeteria.

"I guess asking how you are would be a pretty stupid question" Pamela stated

Sue Ellen sips her coffee

"That's all anyone asks me, people don't know what to say, so that's all they do say. How are you Sue Ellen? I'm so sorry Sue Ellen. I'm sick of hearing it, but then again I don't know what I would want them to say" Sue Ellen replies

"Now I don't know what to say" Pamela says and smiles kindly

"There's nothing to say, John Ross has gone and no amount of words will ever bring him back, I keep thinking that maybe I could of done something, maybe if I been a better mother" Sue Ellen states

"Sue Ellen that's not true, you were a wonderful mother, he loved you so much and he knew you loved him, what happened was not your fault" Pamela replied

"You know Pam the worse part is I never got the chance to say goodbye, there is so much I want to tell him, there is so much I want to say" Sue Ellen explained. "Its even the little things, I called his cell phone the other night, I know it sounds stupid, but I just wanted him to pick up and say 'Hi mom', " Sue Ellen began to cry, Pamela took her hand.

"That doesn't sound stupid, he's your son" Pamela stated her voice breaking as she tried to hold back her emotion.

"God works in mysterious ways doesn't he, I was never a true believer, but I feel its retribution" Sue Ellen said

"What do you mean?" Pamela asked

"I killed that girl" Sue Ellen said.

"No Sue Ellen, don't" Pam replied

"No but its true Pam, I killed that girl, the one image that sticks in my head is her mother, I remember how she looked at me, I took away her child. She lost her daughter and now Iv lost my son" Sue Ellen said.

"Its going to take time Sue Ellen, I know that's a cliche but its true" Pamela reminded Sue Ellen

"No Pamela, not this, I look back a week ago, a month, I don't know who that person was, Sue Ellen died the day John Ross was taken from me and I know that she's never coming back" Sue Ellen said.

Pam squeezed Sue Ellen's hand.