October 28, 1967
J.R. invited me out to Southfork again
this weekend. This time, he surprised me with my own horse!
As J.R. drove up the long black drive-way he kept looking
at me and grinning. I was so nervous as J.R. is very unpredictable
and likes to have fun. J.R. grabbed my hand and held it very
tight. He looked deep into my eyes and said he had a big surprise
for me. He stopped the car and opened up my door. He asked
me to close my eyes. I held very tightly to his arm as he
led me towards the stables. I was shaking as we walked down
past the fence line. We came to a stop and then he said he
was ready for my surprise. He asked me to open my eyes. I
couldn’t believe what I saw right in front of me! It
was the most beautiful black horse I’ve ever seen. He
said the horse was all mine. He said I could name the horse
any name I liked. I said I would give the horse a name by
the end of the day. J.R. helped me up on top of the horse.
Once I grabbed the horses's reigns I just started to laugh
J.R. said he would like to walk the
horse so I could get used to him. I felt so free and also
so safe with J.R. at that very moment. We walked the horses
out to the north pasture. J.R. took me to one of his favorite
spots - the tree house he Bobby, and Gary played in. He told
me he was taking me to one of his most private spots on Southfork.
We came across some tall trees and I could see a house of
some sorts built up in a tree top. J.R.’s horse and
mine came to a complete stop. We both got off our horses and
climbed up into the tree house. J.R. told me some stories
of how he and his two brothers would hide from Jock whenever
they got into trouble. I have a feeling that J.R. was always
up to no good when he was younger. J.R. shared with me so
many private things about his childhood today. I feel so much
more closer to J.R. I am amazed at how much he trusts me with
his deepest thoughts. He loves both his brothers. But I can
see that look in his eyes whenever he speaks of them. He seems
to have a connection of sorts with Bobby. He has a real admiration
of him. He speaks about Gary as an artist, and mostly a dreamer.
I just sat mezmerized by J.R.'s stories of his childhood.
He noticed me looking into his eyes a few times and stopped
talking. I haven't let J.R. kiss me very much or get too physical
with me. My momma told me to keep a man waiting and wanting.
I had brought some wildflowers with me that I picked once
I got off the horse. J.R. grabbed one of the flowers and started
to rub the flower up and down my arms. It felt so soft against
my skin. I closed my eyes and I felt J.R. move closer to me.
He grabbed my chin and pulled me closer to his face. He kissed
me for quite a while. I had to pull away from J.R. as he overwhelms
me with his passion. I told him I wanted to go slow with our
relationship. He said he was willing to wait until I was ready
to go forward. He said I was worth the wait. We only stayed
up in the tree house for a little while. J.R. wanted to show
me more of Southfork and promised to get me back to the main
house before his momma would start to worry about us. She
was making a nice dinner for my visit and I didn’t want
to disappoint her by being alone with J.R for so long. We
spent another hour riding our horses and covering most of
the north section. I never imagined how vast the land is around
Southfork. I think the land goes on and on for miles. I told
J.R. I wanted to go for another ride again next weekend. I
wanted him to show me more of Southfork and to take me back
to the tree house, too. He just smiled at me and said I have
very good ideas.
November 3, 1967
J.R. invited me to Southfork to a fundraiser
for the Daughters of the Alamo. Miss Ellie is the President
and wanted me to help MC the event. Being Miss Texas, I told
her I would help in anyway I could. Momma and Kristin are
coming up for a visit. I asked if they could also come and
see Southfork and also watch the event. Of course, momma will
be able to meet the rest of the Ewings. Momma still thinks
I should start dating Billy Frampton as he is rich in oil,
coal, diamonds and uranium. A very vast empire my momma would
want me to be a big part of. I just am not interested in Billy
Frampton. He is a womanizer and an a power-hungry young man.
I don’t think I would be very happy being married to
I am looking forward to this event.
Miss Ellie said that I could stay at Southfork, chaperoned
by my momma of course. Also, J.R. will be there and I can’t
wait to see him.
November 12, 1967
Today was the fundraiser for the DOA.
I got to Southfork early so I could spend some time with J.R.
J.R. left a note with some wildflowers and told me to secretly
meet him at the tree house. He said he wanted to be alone
with me for a while. I rode my horse and met him at the tree
house. When he heard me riding up to the tree house, J.R.
looked out the window of the tree house and called out my
new name - Yellow Rose of Texas. I still had the wildflowers
that J.R. picked for me. I climbed up the ladder and when
he saw me he took me into his arms and kissed me very passionately.
It is so hard for me to maintain my ladylike reserve whenever
I’m with J.R. He makes me so dizzy with desire at times.
This time, I let J.R. kiss me longer than he did before. I
dropped the wildflowers on the hardwood floor. I have never
kissed anyone so passionately as I did J.R. I had to pull
away as we were both getting so passionate with each other.
J.R. just wiped away my kiss from his mouth and started to
laugh. He said I went a little further with him today and
he liked it. I said I would only let him kiss me and that
was as far as I would go. J.R. said that he just wanted to
sit next to me for a little while and feel the wind blow in
through the window. I sat up and straightened up my dress.
J.R. said I shouldn’t worry about such things. He smiled
at me when I straightened up my dress. He said that he's never
been with any other woman that only wanted to go as far as
a kiss. He said he had respect for me. I got a little flustered
with him when he said that. But, J.R. assured me that I was
the only woman in his life now and for a long time to come.
So, J.R. and I sat in the treehouse
holding hands and talking about the day he took Bobby's personal
jouranl and rode all the way to the treehouse waiting for
Bobby to find him. He said that he almost was able to read
Bobby's journal when he heard Bobby threaten him that he was
going to "pound" J.R. but good if he didn't throw
down his journal. J.R. said that Bobby always had a bad temper
as a boy and J.R. didn't want to push Bobby any further than
a near fatal blows, so he threw down Bobby's journal. Bobby
rode off hard on his horse and J.R. just sat there laughing
at what he did to Bobby.
J.R. said it was getting late and that
we should go back to the ranch. The fundraiser was about to
start. I also told him that my momma would be looking for
me. J.R. said that he would ride with me back to the ranch
and that we could meet later again this time quietly by the
pool after the fundraiser. I told him I would with a smile.
We ended up getting back at the ranch and at the nick of time
- my momma WAS looking for me. She doesn’t care much
for J.R. I’m afraid. I don’t know why. She must
have wondered where J.R. and I went off to. I didn’t
tell her a thing as I just looked back at J.R. and smiled
at him. J.R. is such a charmer. He grabbed my momma’s
arm and took her for a tour of the stables. I had to hurry
up and find Miss Ellie as I needed to study my speech for
the announcement of the fundraiser. I also had to find my
crown and get it on top of my head before doing anything.
When J.R. got back with my momma, I was standing there talking
to Jock. J.R. just looked into my eyes and smiled at me. He
said I looked just like a beautiful princess with the crown
on my head. I felt just like one.